May 31, 2009

Part 17

Please sign the following petition to make Fertility treatment coverage available on all insurances. I just went through IVF and had it not been for my insurance my husband and I would not be pregnant now. I am thankful for my coverage but wish that all couples have coverage. Infertility is a disease that strikes men and women. Please click below and sign.

May 28, 2009

Part 16

I went to the doctor this morning for my Beta and urine test. I will get the Beta results this afternoon sometime. But the results of the urine test...POSITIVE. The nurses words to me were "Oh this is very POSITIVE!" Stay tuned for a video update later this evening!


May 27, 2009

Part 15

Tomorrow is the big day...Beta test and results. I am so excited because this has been the longest 2 weeks in my life. I am continuing to have faith and believe in God. Over the past few days I have been feeling so nauseous. I had a horrible Memorial day weekend. I could not do anything because I was so sick. I thought I was getting the flu. I kept taking my temperature and no fever. My IVF nurse did warn me that I probably will get nauseous during the two week wait. She explained that unless I am vomiting uncontrollably don't worry about calling. All they will tell me is that it is normal and there is nothing they can give me. So I have just been eating the saltine crackers which is helping. I also am feeling very bloated like again. It is a little bit different from when I was stimming thought. It feels like I have just had a nice ab work out. I don't know what that is about. So I will update tomorrow on youtube with my results.

May 20, 2009

Part 14

So some of you know I am a teacher. So going through this IVF process was hard in regards to having to miss work. I tried to have my appointments during my planning bells but it didn't always work like that. So when I'm out I have to write plans for a sub. Remember I teach sign language so most likely the sub is just gonna be a warm body. So I was always concerned for my students. Well my students are also concerned for me. They knew I was missing a lot of school. So now I think they are speculating what is wrong. So today aout the clear blue one nosey ass student says "are you pregnant or are you trying to get pregnant" I was shocked & just said no. I wonder what made her say that. My students are very perceptive & they know I am going through something. They saw me while I was stimming & the changes I went through. I wish I could tell my students but they will just have to wait.


May 19, 2009

Part 13

Today I am feeling really sad for some of my new online friends. Using youtube and blogger I have created bonds with several women who are going through the same experience as me. In the past two days, I learned that two of my new friends got negative results on their Beta test. I don't think I have all the words to comfort them but I am empathizing with them. After hearing their updates it made me think, how would I react if I get the same news on May 28. Am I ready to handle bad news. Right now, my thoughts have been very positive. But I put myself in these lady's shoes and can feel their pain now.

All I can do is continue to pray. I will continue to pray that I will have a successful pregnancy as well as pray for my friends who have learned they will not become mothers right now. I pray for continued strength for me and those going through their IVF cycles. I am praying that what ever the outcome for me that God will strengthen me and provide me with guidance. I believe that it is already decided by God if I will be a mother or not. But as a Christian I will continue to show faithfulness to God.

I know that regardless of the results of my Beta, it is all in God's hands.

Vlog #13

May 18, 2009

Part 12

My IVF nurse called me today with some excellent news. Of the remaining 4 eggs left to grow, all 4 eggs have grown to blastocysts! So what that means is we have 4 blasties on ice and 4 two-day embryos on ice for future use. Hopefully the 2 that were transferred will be all we need to do but it is good knowing that we have the others on ice. Also this makes me think that the two embryos that were implanted are progressing just fine. Hearing this information gives me a lot of hope. I still continue to have my faith in God.

May 16, 2009

Part 11

I have my blood pregnancy test scheduled for Thursday May 28. That is exactly 14 days past the transfer. I have noticed from watching other vlogs that some RE's do their blood test earlier than 14 days. Well my RE does it 14 days. So I will just have to be patient during this 2WW.

So what will I do during this time. I have made a list of things I will do to keep my mind off pregnancy:

build a card house
paint a water color picture
write my autobiography
crochet some socks
sew a dress

LOL...I wont do any of those things! I will probably go insane like every other woman during their 2ww. One thing I may seriously do is make some jewelry. I haven't done that in a while and I may make a few pieces. Anything to get it off my mind.

During this 2ww I am wrestling with do I POAS or not. My doctor strongly suggest waiting until 12 days past the transfer to test. So only time will tell if I will do that. One thing I do know is I will not go out and waste money on HPT. I ordered some strips a while ago and have 7 under my sink. If I do POAS, I will be using those.

Well that's all for now.

May 14, 2009

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May 12, 2009

Part 10

We are getting closer and closer to becoming parents. I spoke with my IVF nurse today. I got some good news. Of the 18 eggs they retrieved yesterday, 15 were mature. Of those 15 mature eggs, 10 fertilized. I am so happy that we have 10 fertilized eggs. So 4 eggs were frozen and 6 were left to grow. We are scheduled for egg transfer on Thursday. Please keep us in your prayers.

May 11, 2009

Part 9

Today is the big day. Egg retrieval. My husband and I our on our way to the hospital. We are excited for today and finding out how many mature eggs we have. Continue to say prayers for us.

May 7, 2009

Part 8

So I am getting closer to the trigger shot. I am so excited about my appointment tomorrow because I believe this will be the last of my monitoring appointment and will be even closer to becoming a mom. I am trusting and believing in God that all will work out.

So since I have been on my meds, I have been psycho! I am up and down and up and down. I thank my husband for being so patient with me. The worst part of the meds is the drowsiness. I feel like I have not had sleep for days when in reality I have had more sleep now than I have ever had in my life.

Since I am so delirious and tired now I will have to end this post now and update later.

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May 3, 2009

Part 7

I just have to say, I love my husband. I know these past few weeks I have not been my regular self. My husband has tolerated the mood swings, the highs and the lows. He hasn't yelled at me nor gotten mad at me. He understands that what I am going through is for us both and he is dealing with it well. I just want to say...I love you babe.

Now that I have gotten that out the way, lets talk business. These meds are driving me wacko!!! I am serious. Anyone who is thinking about IVF should know the roller coaster you will be on while on these meds. They warned me but now I am really experiencing it. I am tired, I am hot, I am happy, I am sad....where does it end. I can't wait until I trigger to stop this emotional roller coaster. But in the end it will all be worth it. In nine months when I am holding my son or daughter, this roller coaster will fade away.

Yesterday was blood work only. I am responding well to the medicine and will return for an ultrasound and blood work again tomorrow. So tomorrow I get to see my follicles!!! I know they are growing because I feel them!

I will update as soon as I get some good news!

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